Category: Domestic Violence and Abuse

God’s Deliverance from Domestic Violence – TRIGGER WARNING

Hello Friends. It is finally time. I recently led a Bible Study on how God delivered me from living in domestic violence. Here are the 2 videos and the PowerPoint Slides from my presentation.

Keep in mind, I tell it like it was – meaning these videos are NOT for children. There are many references to what really happened behind closed doors. This post may trigger some, I kept it real. That’s the only way to heal. I did not use anyone’s name in order to protect their privacy. I simply refer to them with a Number.

“If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just [true to His own nature and promises], and will forgive our sins and cleanse us continually from all unrighteousness [our wrongdoing, everything not in conformity with His will and purpose].” – 1 John 1:9 AMP

These events happened 18 years ago. Since then, I have been free and I love my life with my husband of 17 years, our 6 children, and 7 (soon to be 9) grandchildren. Praise the Lord! God is good!

God’s Deliverance from Domestic Violence – Part 1

God’s Deliverance from Domestic Violence – Part 2

PowerPoint Presentation

Please seek help if you or someone you know lives in domestic abuse. Here are a few numbers/websites you can use to get help.

Read my book here:

“Smothered by control, she runs to hide and locks herself behind the door. She starts rocking herself on the cold bathroom floor as she lays her secrets out like rock hard stones. He is outside the door pounding his fists quoting his Bible. He screams, “You must obey!” She grabs the razor at the side of the tub, then looks away.

Diana Rasmussen takes you behind the locked door to see what it’s really like when you live in domestic violence. As a survivor she fought for her and her children’s freedom and won. Theses poems are from her private journals and many have become songs. Fans have called her words “haunting, powerful, and edgy”. See for yourself, and come into her nightmare in SNOW WHITE DARKNESS.”

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Pray for Me Please

Tomorrow night I give a Bible Study. It’s about Domestic Abuse and how God delivered me. It’s been 18 years since I lived in domestic violence. But as I think of it and prepare my Power Point it brings back all the old feelings. Oh Lord help me. I want to run. Help me Jesus.

I know it was a long time ago, but it still hurts. I still need God’s healing in my heart. Help me Jesus. Will my friends and family think less of me when I share the truth? Lord, give me the courage and strength to share the truth.

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Healing from Trauma: Finding Hope and Justice

As a former victim of domestic violence rape, and abuse I understand what ‘triggers’ are. It may be a sound, a smell, a memory, or anything that transports your mind back to the moment of abuse. You think that that would go away. I mean really, it’s been over 15 years ago for me. How about you?

I stand amazed that I am even here. God must have had a better plan. Some people are just plain evil. They do things that are wrong and just unspeakable. Sometimes I wish I could just strike them down with lightning or something. Then they wouldn’t be able to do ‘it’ to someone else. I seriously don’t know how the abusers live with themselves. They’re hearts really are cold as stone.

Sometimes I wish I could go back with the knowledge I have now. Things would have ended differently then. But we can’t go back. What happened, happened. There was the good, bad, and the ugly. We all have our own trauma’s to heal from. I don’t think you can get out of planet Earth without scars. But what do you do with that trauma?

I tried to bury it, put it in a box and shelf it. That only works for a time. Then it comes out via an emotional explosion. I have journaled, that helped. It seemed like once I wrote it out I didn’t have to carry it. I have spent years in counseling, that helped too. But I got weary of going and hearing, “what’s wrong today?” I guess I didn’t want to talk about the problem anymore, I wanted release from it. I got tired of living there.

And then God…showed up. I’m amazed how he led me to Him and healing. I wasn’t even looking for Him. Truthfully I was mad at Him. “Why?” that was my question. “How could You let this happen?” I blamed God for what an evil person did. God didn’t do that, the Abuser did.

One thing I have learned to do is to ask God to give me justice, not man. I have to trust God enough to let Him take care of things. Otherwise I live in anger, resentment, and bitterness. God promised me He would do it too:

“Vengeance is Mine, and recompense;
Their foot shall slip in due time;
For the day of their calamity is at hand,
And the things to come hasten upon them.” – Deuteronomy 32:35 NKJV

“Dear friends, never take revenge. Leave that to the righteous anger of God. For the Scriptures say, “I will take revenge;
    I will pay them back,”
    says the Lord.” – Romans 12:19 NLT

Ok God – I trust You to take care of it. I release this person(s) to You. What they did was wrong, You know it, You saw it too. I trust You to pay them back. I feel a wave of release once I do this. I can move on now. God’s got this.

Another lesson I have learned in my travels is that God will restore the years and the time back to me. I have faith and believe what God says:

“So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten,
The crawling locust,
The consuming locust,
And the chewing locust, – Joel 2:25

God’s promise in Joel 2:25 implies a ‘recompense. ‘ He can give us fruitful years as a compensation for those in which the locust ate up the fruits of the earth.

God also promises us joy instead of shame. The abusers love to dump shame upon shame on us. They accuse us of the very things they are doing. Guess what abuser? God is gonna give me a double honor just because you were such a jacka**! All those times you called me crazy and stupid. Guess what Abuser? God will renew my mind with His Truth and I will rejoice in my portion! Everlasting joy – yep, I’ll take that, thank you Lord!

“Instead of your shame you shall have double honor,
And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion.
Therefore in their land they shall possess double;
Everlasting joy shall be theirs.” – Isaiah 61:7

God promised to console us and turn our sorrow into joy. He will give us beauty instead of the ashes.

“To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.” – Isaiah 61:3

Don’t’ give up yet my friend, your story isn’t over yet. God has promised you restoration, joy, and a good life. Thank you Jesus!

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.  Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you.  And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. ” – Jeremiah 29:11-13

If you need help, or know someone who does, please contact the National Domestic Violence Hotline. They are available 24/7.

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Embracing Faith: Triumphing Over Domestic Abuse and Finding Love

I heard a sermon the other day where the Pastor shared the hard times of their life. Not a watered down, build you up, prosperity sermon – but the real thing, real life. He humbly shared how he still struggles with death and grief, just as we all do. It touched my heart because of the truth of it all. This thing called life here on Earth. It’s hard. It’s not fair. It rips your heart out into a million pieces. Sometimes it just sucks. Yet, in the middle of it all God calls our name. And God promises to be with us through all of it:

“But now, this is what the Lord, your Creator says, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel ,“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you [from captivity];I have called you by name; you are Mine! 2 “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you. 3 “For I am the Lord your God, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;” – Isaiah 43:1-3a AMP

When I think back to where God has brought me from I stand amazed. There were times I lived in a 1969 trailer with a man that used to scream at me and my kids with the Bible in his hand, telling me I had to do whatever he wanted because God says so. Wow! Thank you Lord for that deliverance!

These days my kids are grown and off living their lives with a better view. They were first hand observers of what we all went through when living in domestic violence. I didn’t think I would ever get out alive. Of course I didn’t tell the kids that. We all learned how to walk on eggshells and not piss off the Narcissist. When living in a traumatic household we all learn to cope in different ways. Not healthy ways though, because there was nothing normal about our home.

I remember going to church sometimes and seeing all the happy couples living their lives. They looked perfect from the outside. But then again, so did I. You learn to put on your ‘plastic smile’ and say ,”Praise the Lord!” to everyone. They didn’t know that on the inside I was screaming, “Help me get out of this abusive marriage!” I was a great secret holder. Kept all those icky feelings stuffed down deep inside – another coping mechanism I would have to unlearn later. (See: I Told Myself This Would Never Happen Again) But, with God’s help and strength I didn’t give up. I found scripture that I would say out loud over and over.

I remember shutting myself in the bathroom with my little index cards of scripture (when the Narcissist was not home of course), “God, you promised I would be somebody’s helpmate. You said that I would find peace and love and happiness – but this isn’t it. Do something to get me and my kids out of here! This is not life at all, I have married and slept with the enemy Lord, Help me!” (See 12 Steps to Keeping Your Sanity When You Are Sleeping with the Enemy)

“The thief comes only in order to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have and enjoy life, and have it in abundance [to the full, till it overflows].” – John 10:10 AMP

God did step in, and gave me the courage to leave with my children. We lived at the local battered women’s shelter for 40 days. That’s kind of ironic, that 40 day thing. I got counseling, and so did my kids. Thank you Lord, even then, You were with us. You never left us, You never forsake us. And You were, and still are faithful. You never stole from me, You never hurt me, You never cheated on me. Yeah, all those things that took years of therapy and lots of time in the Word to unlearn. God’s Holy Spirit still helps me heal those old wounds.

” But when the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby) comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, that is the Spirit of Truth who comes from the Father, He will testify and bear witness about Me.  But you will testify also and be My witnesses, because you have been with Me from the beginning.” – John 15:26-27 AMP

Today I can say it was worth it all. God has restored everything the enemy had stolen. He has blessed me with a Godly Husband (and Pastor, who knew?) who loves me like God does. He is patient and kind. He is amazing, I am so blessed. God has blessed our children, all 6 of them with lots of double portions! Thank you Jesus.

“I will pay you back for the years that your food was eaten by the flying locust, the jumping locust, the destroying locust, and the chewing locust, My large army which I sent among you.  You will have much to eat and be filled. And you will praise the name of the Lord your God, Who has done wonderful things for you. Then My people will never be put to shame. 27 You will know that I am in Israel. You will know that I am the Lord your God, and that there is no other. And My people will never be put to shame.” – Joel 2:25-27 NLV

“Now it shall be, if you diligently listen to and obey the voice of the Lord your God, being careful to do all of His commandments which I am commanding you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. All these blessings will come upon you and overtake you if you pay attention to the voice of the Lord your God. “You will be blessed in the city, and you will be blessed in the field. “The offspring of your body and the produce of your ground and the offspring of your animals, the offspring of your herd and the young of your flock will be blessed. “Your basket and your kneading bowl will be blessed.  “You will be blessed when you come in and you will be blessed when you go out. “The Lord will cause the enemies who rise up against you to be defeated before you; they will come out against you one way, but flee before you seven ways. The Lord will command the blessing upon you in your storehouses and in all that you undertake, and He will bless you in the land which the Lord your God gives you. The Lord will establish you as a people holy [and set apart] to Himself, just as He has sworn to you, if you keep the commandments of the Lord your God and walk [that is, live your life each and every day] in His ways. ” – Deuteronomy 28:4-9 AMP

My hope for you reading this is that you don’t give up just yet. I know it’s hard. I see you. More importantly, God sees you. Cry out to Him in prayer. He will make a way where there is no way. He will deliver you, He promised.

“Instead of your [former] shame you will have a double portion; And instead of humiliation your people will shout for joy over their portion. Therefore in their land they will possess double [what they had forfeited]; Everlasting joy will be theirs. For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery with a burnt offering. And I will faithfully reward them, And make an everlasting covenant with them. Then their offspring will be known among the nations, And their descendants among the peoples. All who see them [in their prosperity] will recognize and acknowledge them That they are the people whom the Lord has blessed.” – Isaiah 61:7-9 AMP

If you or someone you know is an abusive situation reach out for help. Visit The Hotline today to get help!

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How to Overcome a Narcissist and Wondering, Is Narcissism a Choice?

I have known and know a few Narcissists in my life. They are also called Jezebels in the Church Arena. I have married more than one. I have worked for Narcissists. I have been led astray by a Narcissistic Pastor. The hardest part is seeing how the Narcissist has hurt my children. Their self image is torn down again and again. (See: Sweetie, It’s Not You, Your Father is a Narcissist). I have also shared some of my experiences here. (See: Stop Tolerating the Jezebel Spirit)

Hence the question, “Is narcissism a choice?” I read an amazing article this morning that finally helps me understand the why. Thank you Helena Kvam. Here is what she posted on Quora

Source: www.quora.com/Is-narcissism-a-choice/answer/Helena-Kvam

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“Narcissism is not at all a choice. Narcissism is developed in the first years of life, when personality is formed. NPD is created because of severe and long term neglect and hurtful and abusing upbringing. The long-term neglect of the child is severe enough for the child to develop an alter ego. With this alter ego, the damages from neglect, indoctrination, enforcements and other forms of abuse, is severely diminished, since the NPD works well as a self-protection. This new self, is emotionally under developed.

Conveniently, to be able to manipulate and take very good care of the alter ego, the ability to feel empathy is gone too.

Feelings that will protect the new self, is enhanced in the narcissist. To manifest the narcissism, deep in his/hers personality, feelings of grandiosity, entitlement and of being best or smartest (or the most beautiful) are greatly enhanced.

This new façade is paper thin. This façade will if removed, revile a weak and scared person that is guilt and shame ridden. The person behind the alter ego is weak and feels not worthy of a relationship with a person, based on real love, friendship and respect.

The NPD (Narcissistic personality disorder) is considered one of the personality disorders, impossible to treat. This is because the narcissist`s total existence is based on the alter ego. The narcissist needs to truly believe whole heartedly that they are the person, the NPD created. The narcissist has no knowledge of and can`t remember turning into a narcissist. To the narcissist, the narcissism is everything. They will never accept going back to what they were, before the NPD. Without the NPD, their destiny`s would have been bleak. The narcissist has been rescued from the awful feeling of neglect and abuse, and traded in with being wonderful and winning instead, in their own eyes.

To be a narcissist is not a choice, but a self-protection that is built in the unconsciousness of the narcissist mind. The NPD has forced its way forward and out in the person to protect against the horrible truth of this persons living conditions and imperfections. It`s this child’s rescue, because this child is not resilient enough to survive mentally without its alter ego – the narcissism. The lack of sympathetic emotions ensures the narcissist ability to focus on their own needs uninterrupted.”

Wow, that makes sense. I always thought it was me. But that was exactly what the Narcissist in my life wanted me to believe…ok, that’s a little frightening. Best option for me – Get Out!

Wisdom from a Fellow Survivor:

“The only way to completely shut down a narcissist is to cut them out of your life in every way, shape, and form. You can’t respond with understanding and kindness. You can’t move across the country and continue to text them. You can’t “take a break” and see what happens in a few weeks or months.

They need to go.

This might sound harsh – especially if you’ve built a family or close relationship with them – but it’s the only way. You need to acknowledge that this is an abusive situation with a person who will never understand that their behavior is wrong.”

– Kim Saeed
from https://kimsaeed.com/2018/06/22/the-only-guaranteed-one-crazy-trick-for-dealing-with-a-narcissist/
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15 Quotes About How to Set Healthy Boundaries

Have you ever read the Boundaries Series by Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend? I have to say that this is one of the best books I have ever read. As a former victim of Domestic Violence I had no idea what a boundary was or how I could set one. I never said NO!

I had no idea when to say YES and when to say NO! I was saying YES to people I should have said NO to. I was saying NO to people I should have said YES to. Does this make any sense? Do you struggle to set boundaries in your life?

I was literally a Chameleon. I was so starved for attention that I became whatever the man in my life wanted. I was a prep for the engineer, I was a biker for the biker, etc. ad nauseum. I literally had no idea what Diana liked or wanted. Seriously. I was a doormat.

But not anymore, lol! Seriously, this book changed my life. It really helped me. And NO, they did not pay me to say this. What books have helped you with life? Yes, I know, the Bible. Me too. Any others?

15 Quotes About How to Set Healthy Boundaries

  1. “We change our behavior when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing. Consequences give us the pain that motivates us to change.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend
  2. “Emotions, or feelings, have a function. They tell us something. They are a signal….Anger tells us that our boundaries have been violated. Much like a nation’s radar defense system, angry feelings serve as an “early warning system” telling us we’re in danger of being injured or controlled.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend
  3. “Anger is frustration at the fact that we are not God, and do not have control over reality.” ― Dr Henry Cloud & Dr John Townsend
  4. “When we ask we are owning our needs. Asking for love, comfort or understanding is a transaction between two people. You are saying: I have a need. It’s not your problem. It’s not your responsibility. You don’t have to respond, but I’d like something from you. This frees the other person to connect with you freely and without obligation. When we own that our needs are our responsibility we allow others to love us because we have something to offer. Asking is a far cry from demanding. When we demand love, we destroy it.” ― Henry Cloud and John Townsend
  5. “When two people are free to disagree, they are free to love. When they are not free, they live in fear, and love dies.” ― Henry Cloud and John Townsend
  6. The most basic boundary-setting word is “no.” It lets others know that we exist apart from them and that we are in control of ourselves.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud, Dr. John Townsend
  7. “When one person is in control of another, love cannot grow deeply and fully, as there is no freedom.” ― Henry Cloud and John Townsend
  8. “The best example of a safe person is found in Jesus. In him were found the three qualities of a safe person: dwelling, grace, and truth.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud, Dr. John Townsend “We change our behavior when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of changing. Consequences give us the pain that motivates us to change.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend
  9. “Emotions, or feelings, have a function. They tell us something. They are a signal….Anger tells us that our boundaries have been violated. Much like a nation’s radar defense system, angry feelings serve as an “early warning system” telling us we’re in danger of being injured or controlled.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud and Dr. John Townsend
  10. “Anger is frustration at the fact that we are not God, and do not have control over reality.” ― Dr Henry Cloud & Dr John Townsend
  11. “When we ask we are owning our needs. Asking for love, comfort or understanding is a transaction between two people. You are saying: I have a need. It’s not your problem. It’s not your responsibility. You don’t have to respond, but I’d like something from you. This frees the other person to connect with you freely and without obligation. When we own that our needs are our responsibility we allow others to love us because we have something to offer. Asking is a far cry from demanding. When we demand love, we destroy it.” ― Henry Cloud and John Townsend
  12. “When two people are free to disagree, they are free to love. When they are not free, they live in fear, and love dies.” ― Henry Cloud and John Townsend
  13. The most basic boundary-setting word is “no.” It lets others know that we exist apart from them and that we are in control of ourselves.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud, Dr. John Townsend
  14. “When one person is in control of another, love cannot grow deeply and fully, as there is no freedom.” ― Henry Cloud and John Townsend
  15. “The best example of a safe person is found in Jesus. In him were found the three qualities of a safe person: dwelling, grace, and truth.” ― Dr. Henry Cloud, Dr. John Townsend
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Surviving Domestic Violence

I was looking at old pictures the other day. Came accross the one I took after I left my ex and he smashed my window in my van. It wasn’t bad enough that he smashed it out, but he took the extra effort to bring some of the broken glass and put it right in front of my glass sliding door. Just so I would know he was there.

It’s been 10 years. I am so grateful that me and my kids are free and safe. I don’t miss the yelling, screaming, fighting, and violence. I treasure my peace today.

Want to see what it was like? Visit my link below and see some of my journal entries. Man, that was a lifetime ago. Thank you Lord for deliverance!

http://dianarasmussen.com/2014/10/24/journal-entries-from-a-former-domestic-violence-victim/

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Why Jezebels and Narcissits Spoil Every Holiday and How to Keep Your Peace

You may know one – or have known one. The Killjoy, the Jezebel or the Naracissit who consistantly ruins every holiday. It may be a birthday, a Thanksgiving, or even Christmas.  Every year they make a scene – to be seen. It’s almost like they are on steroids. All those criticizing, belittling, and blaming behaviors come out in stereo. Loud and proud as they cut down everyone and everything in their way. But why? Why do they insist on the drama every Holiday? And more importantly, what can you do to keep your peace?

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Why Jezebels and Narcissists Spoil Every Holiday and How to Keep Your Peace

  • Jezebels and Narcissits have a self control problem. They have none. So they create drama all around them so they feel important. It’s all about them. They want to be the star of the show. So if they cut you down, they think they shine.
    •  It’s a pretty dull sparkle if you ask me. Don’t react. Let them be stupid all by themselves.
  • Holidays bring crowds and they love to be the star of the show. Once again, you don’t matter to them. They have no real heart. It is cold and closed. More people mean a bigger audience for them to play their leading role.
    • They are a legend in their own minds.  Too bad it’s the size of a pea, lol! They think they are God and everyone should bow down and worship them. Don’t do it. Don’t put them on a pedestel, or cater to their whims. There is no throne for that type of behavior. It’s abusive.
  • Jezebels and Narcissists are insecure –  only they don’t want anyone to know about it. They often overreact to the dumbest things. They will blow a gasket at the drop of a hat, over anything. They are maniupulaters and blamers. In their mind anything that goes wrong is never their fault. They think they walk on water.
    • They will blame whoever is in their way. This way they feed their own ego. You can almost see their head blow up with their own hot air. When the blaming starts, take a deep breath and don’t belive them. Whatever comes out of their mouth is not true. They lie to cover things up all the time. Half of the time they do not even remember all the lies they tell.
  • Jezebesl and Narcissists  love to stir up drama. Have you ever noticed how they will poke and prod and gossip just to get someone upset? It makes them feel in control. They love to get other people angry.  I really think anger is fuel to them. They thrive on it.
    • Don’t play. Don’t react. Let their words fall to the ground.  Just because they said something doesn’t mean it is true. Sometimes this makes them even angrier, be prepared. It’s healthy to walk away, take a break, leave the room. You don’t have to watch them crash and burn.

Keep you peace this Holiday. If they want to be a jerk, let them. We have no contorl over other people’s bad behavior. It is not our fault they are jerks, that is their choice. What we can control is our reaction to it.

“Don’t feed the Jezebel or the Narcissist – they will only get uglier.”

Remember to put on your full armor and stand strong. Let it go, God will deal with them just like He did with Jezebel. Keep your peace. Don’t play. Pray, ask God to intercede. He will, and watch the Jezebels fall!

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Letting Go of the Past and Negative Thoughts

It has been said that “as a man thinks – so he becomes.” Yes, we are what we think about. One of the hardest things for me after domestic violence and abuse is learning to renew my mind. I had to learn that just because someone said something to me, that did NOT mean that it was true.  Abusers are excellent manipulators and agents for the Enemy. They plant lie after lie in your head and after hearing something so many times, I started to believe it.


You know the Negative thoughts:

  • You are worthless
  • Nobody would ever want you
  • The kids and I would be better without you
  • You are dumb, fat, ugly, and stupid
  • You never do anything right
  • You mean nothing to me
  • Are you really that stupid?

Can you relate? 

Only reading the Word of God has helped cast down these lies. I needed a new tape, a new mindset. I needed a new truth.

 Praise God –  He is able. He is waiting to meet us and get rid of all the lies. Satan has come to kill, steal, and destroy – BUT GOD is exceedingly abundantly willing to give us a new life with new thoughts and life more abundantly. Don’t be deceived any longer my friends.


Those words spoken over you from the Enemy I cast down and turn into dust in Jesus Name!



For though we walk in the flesh [as mortal men], we are not carrying on our [spiritual] warfare according to the flesh and using the weapons of man. 

The weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood]. Our weapons are divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses. 

We are destroying sophisticated arguments and every exalted and proud thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought and purpose captive to the obedience of Christ, being ready to punish every act of disobedience, when your own obedience [as a church] is complete. – 2 Corinthians 10:3-6AMP



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Forgiveness

Forgiveness

-Copyright 2016 Diana Rasmussen-

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Forgiveness doesn’t mean that I accept what you did to me

Forgiveness means I let go of taking vengeance against you

Forgiveness means I trust my God to deal with you because He told me, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay.”

Forgiveness means I don’t have to think about you or what you did to me

Forgiveness means I am free from your prison of pain

Forgiveness means I can move on and go forward

Forgiveness frees me to be who God made me to be, regardless of what you do or don’t do

Forgiveness gives me the freedom to pray for you

Forgiveness let’s me be me

Forgiveness frees my Father in Heaven to forgive me

For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. – Matthew 6:14-15 NIV

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The Sickness That God Delivered You From Might Try to Come Back.

Sickness. Illness. We live in a fallen world with sin and sickness everywhere. But our God delivers. Jesus came to seek and to save the lost and He heals them ALL. Now it might be here, or it might be on the other side, but He heals them ALL.

“Then great multitudes came to Him, having with them the lame, blind, mute, maimed, and many others; and they laid them down at Jesus’ feet, and He healed them.” Matthew 15:30 NKJV

I do not believe for one moment that God gives us sickness.

Did Jesus ever say,” Geez, I see that you are sick, come back tomorrow.” NO!

Did Jesus ever say, ” Man you really messed up, you better go get right with God before you come back here for healing?”  NO!

Did Jesus ever see someone sick and NOT heal them? NO!

I don’t believe for one one moment that God wants to”teach us something” with sickness. That is a lie straight from the Religious Spirit that man has put out there. Not God. He never said that.

God is good and He heals ALL.

” [ Behold, My Servant ] But when Jesus knew it, He withdrew from there. And great multitudes followed Him, and He healed them all.” – Matthew 12:15 NKJV

Do we get sick. Yes. We live in a fallen world. We are living in theses bodies which get run down, stressed out, and sometimes sick. But when that happens there is our opportunity go to God and expect his healing. He promised us. There is no sickness in Heaven. So why do we think we have to be sick here?  Like it’s who we are or something. I am not a label. I am not an illness.  I am not going to talk about how bad I feel all day. We have the Spirit of the Living God in us – what we talk about will come to pass!  No wonder God said to be slow to speak. I refuse to agree with the Enemy of my soul. I have spent way too many years agreeing with the wrong guy.

“But He was wounded for our transgressions,
He was bruised for our iniquities;
The chastisement for our peace was upon Him,
And by His stripes we are healed.” – Isaiah 53:5 nkjv

I am tired of the Body Of Christ believing all this stuff. He bore our sickness so we didn’t have to. Do I get sick? Of course I do. I am still human. But I refuse to label myself with this disease or that disease and say “This is me and I am my disease and its who I am.” – and take care of it like it’s a pet. I refuse to feed it. Sickness can shrivel up and die.

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I was home today. I did it not well. About 6 months ago I was hospitalized with ischemic colitis. It was bad – blood, cramps, fever, etc.  The Doctor said I might have this disease and that disease. I said no. My God says I am healed. My husband and kids prayed with me. my Pastors  and their wives came and prayed with me. And we STOOD OUR GROUND. Guess what happened? God healed me. Did I take my medicine- yes. God uses Doctors and Nurses all the time to do His will and heal. Let’s use the help that God gives us and not get all religious about it.

Today, that same sickness tried to come back. I had the same symptoms. I thought.” Great – that same sickness that I had had was trying to come back on me..”  I had the heating  pad on my stomach all day to feel better. I even lost it for a minute and dug out all my hospital paperwork. My first thought was, “Great here we go again.”

Then I got mad. I stood up to that stupid colitis and said, “NO, you are not coming on me again! Get out of here is Jesus Name. I reject you and these demons who brought you to my door. My God healed me and I am standing in that healing.”God is good, Devil is bad. My God heals. He healed me the first time and you are not welcome here.

Stand strong my friends – no matter what the symptoms. Exercise your faith and watch and see what God will do.  This is not the end – only an opportunity to exercise your faith and watch God get the glory in your healing. He promised us healing – either here on earth or in Heaven. And I for one am going to take Him at His WORD!

The Good News? If it has a name it has to bow to Jesus!

“And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient to the point of death, even the death of the cross. Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name,  that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” – Philippians 2:8-11 NKJV

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I See the Scars

I ran into a girl the other day with scars on her arms. My heart dropped. I know what that feels like to have no hope. To take the pain that you are feeling out on yourself. To sit in the bathroom with the door locked  and just sit on the floor rocking back and forth. When we have been through unexplainable trauma that is how we cope.  But I am living proof that it doesn’t have to stay that way.

My life changed when I found a support system of friends and God. Yes, God. Reading the Word bring me hope. It opens my mind to the  fact that there is a God and He cares about me even when others do not.

Don’t give up my friend. There is hope. There is life, a life more abundant than you ever imagined. A life where there is no more pain, no more sorrow, no more hurt.  Have you met my friend Jesus?  He is faithful. He is true. He is peaceful. He brings hope and healing and protection under the shadow of his wings. And He is waiting for you to call out His name for help today. He stands at the door and knocks.  Will you let Him in?

Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.  – REVELATION 3:20 nkjv

 

I See the Scars

Copyright 2016 Diana Rasmussen

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I see the scars upon your arms

My heart skipped a beat as I thought of what I could say

To take away the pain that brought you to that place

How I wish I could change the things that you’ve been through

I’m here today to sit and listen if you choose to share

I remember what it felt like

To be the girl with the scars

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