Tag: sorrow

These Tears are Diamonds 

These Tears are Diamonds

-Copyright 2017 Diana Rasmussen-

Tears from sorrow 

Tears from the pain

Will I ever 

Get up again?

Pressure and stress

Not feeling blessed

Will this season

Ever be done?

Only God can take

These tears like lake

Plant them as seeds

For joy to grow

Those who sow in Tears 

Shall reap in joy. 

He who continually goes forth weeping, 

Bearing seed for sowing, 

Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, 

Bringing his sheaves with him. – Psalm 126:5-6

I can’t believe all those years I cried. All those years of sorrow. I didn’t think God knew or even cared. I was wrong.

He collected every tear. He put it in his bottle. He planted it for a future harvest.

Today my life is way different. I am happy. I am blessed. God took all those years and planted them as seeds. You know what grew? Joy. Yes – joy! God doesn’t waste anything. He is faithful. He will turn your sorrow into joy – He promised!

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Too Many Tears

There are days that the losses of so many in the world just bring tears. So many lives lost for no good reason. May the God of all comfort hold us close tonight.

Especially T – who list her sister at 911.

And my brother and sister and I who lost our Mommy 4 years ago today.

Help us all Lord.

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. – 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV

 

Beautiful new vocals to this song by Julia Schmidt, and a new mix from Nathaniel Jones of Protilius Productions!

Source: Connect to Independent Music

RAINDROPS ARE TEARS

©2014 Music and Lyrics by Diana Rasmussen
Vocals by Julia Schmidt
Timbre Design,Engineering and Produced by Nathaniel Jones of Protilius Productions

“Raindrops fall from the sky because the clouds can no longer hold them”

There are tears my heart can’t hold
falling down soaking the ground

Water from my soul releasing pain
It’s our cry to begin again

You wept when I wept
You cried when I cried

From a secret place I see your face
Your raindrops are tears
Sent from above pouring out love
Your raindrops are tears

Drench my hurt heal my pain
You can call me by a new name

Soak the trees, heal all things
that are precious to a King

From a secret place I see your face
Your raindrops are tears
Sent from above pouring out love
Your raindrops are tears

You wept when I wept
You cried when I cried

From a secret place I see your face
Your raindrops are tears
Sent from above pouring out love
Your raindrops are tears

Diana Rasmussen

Lyric Credits
Music Credits Diana Rasmussen & Nathaniel Jones of Protilius Productions
Producer Credits Protilius Productions
Performance Credits vocals by Julia Schmidt, Music and lyrics by Diana Rasmussen & Nathaniel Jones of Protilius Productions

 

 

When You Can’t Be Together at the Holidays

Holidays are hard sometimes. Especially when for whatever reason you can’t be together. Maybe it’s because of an illness, or distance, or death, or service. No matter what the reason it makes your heart hurt. That’s where I am today. Don’t get me wrong – I am grateful for the get togethers. Yet I miss _____. Funny how you can feel two things at one time. 

Yet time goes on. The moon still sets and the sun still rises. The breeze still blows as I sit here feeling like I’m frozen in time. And here, in this moment, is when I hear,

“I will come to you.”

And again, 

“I will come – TO YOU.”

Right here, right now, in the middle of this loneliness – this is the place where Jesus will come – to me.  All of a sudden He is the pursuer in this crazy love relationship. He is on the offense making the ‘first move’ to get closer.  He will come when His Beloved is hurting. He hears our heart cries. I am humbled- and grateful.

I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you. – John 14:18


And He will come to you today too. In the middle of your loneliness – He will come to you. 

In the middle of that sorrow – He will come to you.

In the middle of that sickness – He will come to you.

In the middle of that grief – He will come to you.

In the middle of _______ – He will come to you.

  

(Images from Pinterest)

Oceans of Memories

We all know grief. We have all lost someone dear to us. They say death is a part of life. Idk about that. I can tell you I don’t like it. I don’t like losing people. Yes, I know if they are saved they go to Heaven and dance with Jesus. But we are still here. And some days I really miss them.

Here are the lyrics to one of my new songs I am working on.

 But the Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, Whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will cause you to recall (will remind you of, bring to your remembrance) everything I have told you. – John 14:26 AMP

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Ocean of Memories

Copyright 2015 Diana Rasmussen

In the middle of the room sat a hospital bed
silver side rails held her in while lifting her head
I grabbed the black remote control
Raised her up once more to hold her close

She was trapped in a body that just wouldn’t move
Yet I could see her inside, Her spirit you cannot hide

Oceans of Memories flooded her mind
She looked at me without speaking a word
One blink for yes, Two blinks for no
I squeezed her hand and said, “I know”

I’m glad Mama was home at the time of her life’s end
Those last days were hard for my mother and my friend
Can I just hit the rewind?
Back to a time without that hospital bed

Im trapped in a body that just won’t move
You can see me inside, Your Spirit you cannot hide
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Oceans of memories flooding my mind
God look at me without saying a word
One blink for yes, Two blinks for no
Lord squeeze my hand and tell me, “I know”

Waves of love and waves of grief
Holy Spirit comfort me through this time
Oceans of memories flowing like tides

Oceans of memories flooding my mind
God look at me without saying a word
One blink for yes, Two blinks for no
Lord squeeze my hand and tell me, “I know”

(Image Credits – Pinterest)

In His Glass

Here is a song/poem I wrote about my life lately. Yes, we went to court – again. And no – deadbeat dad is still not paying child support. I know I am not the only one here who deals with this. And yes, God is good and He has made up for all things. But I have to admit, it get’s frustrating. The ex went to jail for 5 days after getting picked up for not wearing a seat belt. There was a $24,000 bond on his head at the time as he decided to blow off the last two court appearances. Judges don’t like that.

So, after 5 days and only one payment this year the Judge asked me what I thought. Yes, the ex has been working – a union job with great pay and benefits. And yet he still chose not to pay his child support. My answer? Well, not what you would think that’s for sure. Must be a God thing. I asked the Judge to show him MERCY and give him the opportunity to work. Yep, I did.

The Judge said ok then and let my ex free without paying anything. He gave him a 90 day stay – which means he has 90 days to do the right thing. We even lowered the amount to make it easier. And here we are a month later – no child support. Seriously? Join me in praying for the ex will you? Not that I want to, but God tells me I have to. “Pray for your enemies.” And “Vengeance is mine says the Lord, I will repay” And then there is the one about “show mercy as I have shown you mercy.” And I really think my kids would fall apart if their dad went back to jail for the 3rd time. Ugggh…

So here I sit. And here I write. And pour out my troubles before my God. Thank you all for your love, your support, and your prayers. You hold me up when I can’t stand it anymore. You see every single mom out there trying to make it without help is a WIDOW. Yes, they got left, despite all their good intentions, their promises, and their attempts to make things work. And every child of divorce is ORPHANED. They did not ask for it either. And it is not their fault.   You don’t have to move them in but could you help them out a bit? Why do we kick the people who are down and judge the wounded?

James 1_27Justice, what happened to Justice? Seriously, this whole child support system is broken. I think we should write some new laws for all the moms and kids out there who get left holding the bag – and all the bills. Deadbeat dads should not get to sit in jail with no bills, all their meals made for them and play cards all day. This is not working. How about some new laws for offenders? Let’s put the deadbeat dads to work on a farm or something, pay the moms so the kids can eat and keep the lights on, and let them work off their debt. Teach them how to work. Fix it, instead of giving them a place to run and hide from their responsibilities. Yes, people can change. But what is the incentive to do the right thing when you can get a free ‘jail-cation’?

My challenge to all of us this week – help a single mom. Money, gas, groceries, whatever. Just help someone with something. Pay it forward.

But then God surprises me. He sends someone. To stand alongside you when you are down. Not to kick you, but to help you up. I am grateful for the Samaritans that God has placed in my life and my husband’s life. Thanks Jeff – you show me what God’s love looks like. We all need help. Will you reach down and help another man/woman/child up this week?

In His Glass

Copyright 2014 Diana Rasmussen

Mommy needed a break
she had to get away
they left their house
her perfect family up in flames
Like a broken mirror
it’s shattered glass

Every girl wants her daddy to be the hero
Every boy believes he’s Superman
As God collects their tears as prayers
He fills His glass

Lawbreaker, rebel
Daddy’s refusing to change
Refusing to pay
cops took him away
They see him Saturdays
touch him through the glass

Every girl wants her daddy to be the hero
Every boy believes he’s Superman
As God collects their tears as prayers
He fills His glass

Daddy kept drowning his sorrows
Drinking his tomorrows
“Cheers!” he raises his glass,
Says, “just one more round”
will he ever turn around?

Every girl wants her daddy to be the hero
Every boy believes he’s Superman
As God collects their tears as prayers
He fills His glass

(all images from Pinterest)

Sorrow Sowed Blooms Joy

SORROW SOWED
Copyright 2013 Diana Rasmussen

From: Pinterest
From: Pinterest

In fertile ground
Love transferred
Seeds are stirred
With the Word

Hope sprouts
Faith escalates
Healing leaves
Germinate

Spirit knows
Peace grows
Sorrow sowed
blooms joy

We Remember

I dedicate this to Mary Ellen and Linda today. Both of them died on Sept 11th.  May they dance with the Angels on streets of gold today and always. And thanks to my husband Bob who made the video.

Love u t, and miss u mom…

D

“I LIFT MY HANDS” 

By Chris Tomlin

Be still, there is a healer

His love is deeper than the sea

His mercy, it is unfailing

His arms are fortress for the weak

Let faith arise

Let faith arise

I lift my hands to believe again

You are my refuge, You are my strength

As I pour out my heart

These things, I remember

You are faithful, God, forever

Be still, there is a river

That flows from Calvary’s tree

A fountain for the thirsty

Pure grace that washes over me

Let faith arise

Let faith arise

I lift my hands to believe again

You are my refuge, You are my strength

As I pour out my heart

These things, I remember

You are faithful, God, forever

I lift my hands to believe again

You are my refuge, You are my strength

As I pour out my heart

These things, I remember

You are faithful, God, forever

Let faith arise, let faith arise

Open my eyes, open my eyes

Let faith arise, let faith arise

Open my eyes, open my eyes

I lift my hands to believe again

You are my refuge, You are my strength

As I pour out my heart

These things, I remember

You are faithful, God, forever

And I lift my hands to believe again

You are my refuge, You are my strength

As I pour out my heart

These things, I remember

You are faithful, God

You are faithful, God, forever

Let faith arise

Let faith arise

Songwriters

LOUIE GIGLIO, CHRIS TOMLIN, MATT MAHER

Read more: Chris Tomlin – I Lift My Hands Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Raindrops Are Tears

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RAINDROPS
©2013 Diana Rasmussen

There are tears
my heart can’t hold
falling down soaking the ground

Water from my soul
releasing pain
My cry to begin again

From a secret place
I see your face
Your raindrops are tears
Sent from above
pouring out grace and love
Your raindrops are tears

Drench my hurt
flood over my pain
You call me by a new name

Soaking the trees
healing all things
that are precious to a King

From a secret place
I see your face
Your raindrops are tears
Sent from above
pouring out grace and love
Your raindrops are tears

You wept when I wept
You cried when I cried

From a secret place
I see your face
Your raindrops are tears
Sent from above
pouring out grace and love
Your raindrops are tears

Cold Bathroom Floor (may trigger)

Cold Bathroom Floor

©2013 Diana Rasmussen

black tile

When his shouting starts
she just runs away
locks the door
curls up on the
cold bathroom floor
He pounds on the door
with his angry fist
quoting his Bible
and screaming
“You have to obey!”
A tear falls from her face
as she begins to sway
She counts the tiles on
the cold bathroom floor
rocks her numbness away
hopeless and afraid
love shouldn’t hurt this way
she carries her secrets like stones
laying them out on the floor
square by square, tile by tile
she rocks not to feel anymore
She looks at the razor
on the side of the tub
will it make the
pain go away?
she doesn’t want
to go one more day
the darkness is
calling her name
she carries her secrets like stones
laying them out on the floor
square by square, tile by tile
she rocks not to feel anymore
Such trauma and abuse
so many bruises
why don’t they see?
what he’s doing to me?
she carries her secrets like stones
laying them out on the floor
square by square, tile by tile
she rocks not to feel anymore

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