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She Carries Her Secrets

The Daily Prompt is about Secrets. I wrote a song about SECRETS not too long ago.  There are so many things we try to bury.  Pretend they never happened.

She carries her secrets around in a box, hides them in darkness keeps them locked…

Shoves the box under the bed, some things are not meant to be said.

~Diana Rasmussen AMETHYST SHARDS

Take those things we don’t want to talk about, shove them in a ‘box’ in our hearts, and hope they never come up again.  I think they grow in there. Yep, the more I tried to stuff in there, the worse it got.  And the sicker I got.  And the more I wanted to hurt myself and others. Not a healthy way to deal with things.

Eventually I found people I could trust to share my ‘box of secrets’ with.  Yes, I had to go to counseling and pay someone to listen. I have gotten ‘help’ more than once in my life.  Different counselors, depending on what state I was living in at the time. Yet, I have to say, overall my experience was good.  Having someone to share these things with helped me.  I have heard it said that you are only as sick as your secrets. I believe that.

The more secrets I held in about myself, the more I lived in fear and shame.  And shame will haunt you like no other ghost can.  It will condemn you everytime you look in the mirror.  That shame may have been put there by something that you have done, or even, what someone has done to you.  I had a lot of those secrets.  Abuse, Domestic Violence, lets just say that things happened that shouldn’t have happened.  It wasn’t right.  Those were the things I had to let out and share with someone I trusted. And once I did, I was free of them.

Finally after years I found a Christian Counselor, she was the easiest one to talk to.  Her perspective was different.  I could talk about God there.  I have shared a few secrets with some of the Pastors in my past. Some, not all.  God knows what I have lived through.  And I know He loves me and forgives me.  He was there.  

Amethyst Shards
©2013 Words and Music by Diana Rasmussen and Chameleon
Mixed/Mastered by Protilius Productions

She carries her secrets around in a box

hides them in darkness keeps them locked

Amethyst Shards in the depths of her heart

rattling around like skeletons

Amethyst shards

are falling down like

houses of cards

Shoves the box under the bed

some things are not meant to be said

Amethyst Shards in the depths of her heart

are falling down

Amethyst Shards in the depths of her heart

are falling down

Buries her memories stuffs all her pain

hoping they’ll never come up again

Amethyst Shards in the depths of her heart

rattling around like skeletons

Amethyst Shards are falling down

like houses of cards

Oh love is the key that unlocks 

Yes love is the key that unlocks

Amethyst Shards in the depths of her heart

are falling down

Amethyst Shards in the depths of her heart

are falling down

Fragments of herself locked in darkness

Amethyst Shards falling down

like houses of cards

Daily Prompt: Hear No Evil

Tell us about a conversation you couldn’t help but overhear and wish you hadn’t.
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Why Doesn’t She Just Leave?

It has been brought up again and again, “Why doesn’t she just leave him?”  I wish there was an easy answer.  But it is different for each person.  That is why it is IMPERATIVE, in my opinion, that a victim seek professional help.  The Police get involved for a reason. There are counselors in place at every domestic violence shelter that I have ever been to.  There are professional counselors that will help lead a person out of bondage.  Even our regular MD Doctors ask us every visit, ” Do you feel safe at home?”  There are Pastors that can help someone get the help they need. I had to tell someone, anyone, what was going on. BREAKING THE SILENCE was  step one for me to get out alive.  I didn’t have to dump everything, I just had to say something…

Ok, you asked. Here are the statistics along with my source.

We don’t leave right away because we fear for our lives.
We have been told again and again that if we do we will be killed,
and so will our children…and many die trying.
Terrorism – in your own house, that’s what it’s like….
and here is a .pdf with

50 OBSTACLES TO LEAVING a.k.a. WHY ABUSE VICTIMS STAY

http://www.vcpionline.org/pdfs/50%20Reasons%20Why%20Victims%20Stay.pdf
From: joannewellington.wordpress.com
From: joannewellington.wordpress.com

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE STATISTICS

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One out of every three women will be abused at some point in her life.
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Battering is the single major cause of injury to women, exceeding rapes, muggings and auto accidents combined.
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A woman is more likely to be killed by a male partner (or former partner) than any other person.
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About 4,000 women die each year due to domestic violence.
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 Of the total domestic violence homicides, about 75% of the victims were killed as they attempted to leave the relationship or after the relationship had ended.
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Seventy-three percent of male abusers were abused as children.
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Thirty percent of Americans say they know a woman who has been physically abused by her husband in the past year.
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Women of all races are equally vulnerable to violence by an intimate partner.
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On average, more than three women are murdered by their husbands or partners in this country every day.
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Intimate partner violence a crime that largely affects women. In 1999, women accounted for 85% of the victims of intimate partner violence.
*On average, a woman will leave an abusive relationship seven times before she leaves for good.
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Approximately 75% of women who are killed by their batterers are murdered when they attempt to leave or after they have left an abusive relationship.
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Yep, IT’S LIKE TERRORISM.  so why do people blame the victim?