A Handful of Sand

Copyright 2013 Diana Rasmussen

His cover is totally blown
All his secrets are known
With hang up calls
Ringing their home phone

All she has is a handful of sand
Falling through her fingers
The tighter she grips
The more she loses
Just a handful of sand

Accepting the finality
Of his depravity
She refuses
false reality

All she has is a handful of sand
Falling through her fingers
The tighter she grips
The more she loses
Just a handful of sand

Like a snake slithering in the grass
A man with two faces is dangerous

All she has is a handful of sand
Falling through her fingers
The tighter she grips
The more she loses
Just a handful of sand

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord,

There are so many of us that have been lied to, and cheated on.  Adultery, cheating, lying, unfaithfulness, sneaking around – whatever. What they did was wrong, you know it and we know it.  Help us Lord.  We don’t know how to fix this mess.  How can we trust again? What do we do? Where do we go from here?  Looking to You for answers…

(P.S.  I do not know who I was supposed to share this with tonight.  Just know you are not alone.  I have been there too.  And yes, it was wrong.  When my ex cheated on me I had to decide – should I stay or should I go? Was counseling an option? Did he want to change? I couldn’t change him, or fix him. He did not know what love was.  And he didn’t want to stop and learn either. I couldn’t make him love me. It wasn’t about me – a hard heart doesn’t let anyone in, even me. And some people do NOT want to change.  And I was worth more than that – and so are you beloved.)