I’m hiding. I have been ever since I got some bad news about a medical condition. Not earth shattering or anything, just not what I wanted to hear. For the last few weeks I haven’t been up to much other than work and home. I had a few banner days with my kiddos, but other that I kinda shut down.
I think it ‘s natural when you get bad news. My first response is to reject it. I don’t want to hear it. I deny it. That lasted for a few weeks. Then I finally caved and went and took the test the Dr. asked me too. I didn’t like what he had to say. So I rejected his orders to go take another test.
I don’t want to. I don’t even want to think about what could happen. I am not good with the “what ifs”. Better just to ignore it. So I did. Well, that lasted another 2 weeks. I finally caved and have to go in for another test in 2 more weeks. Uggh – this getting older sucks sometimes!
I know God can heal and will heal – but can He hurry up about it? I really don’t like this waiting and trusting stuff. It’s very uncomfortable. Probably my lesson I guess. Yeah, I get it. But I still don’t like it.
My Pastor even preached about how ‘we have not because we ask not’. He shared how we need to tell each other what we are going through. I about fell out of my chair! Seriously Lord, who told him? I know I was praying about it, but in my pride, I didn’t want to tell anybody what I was struggling with. And here comes Holy Spirit, lol! God cracks me up sometimes. After the sermon, I gathered my ‘girl tribe’ and told them what was going on so they could pray. I told my kids that day too…this life stuff is so humbling at times.
So in my hiding spot I looked at other people who hid in the Bible:
- Elisha went to hide and God met him there:
And there he went into a cave, and spent the night in that place; and behold, the word of the Lord came to him, and He said to him, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”” So he said, “I have been very zealous for the Lord God of hosts; for the children of Israel have forsaken Your covenant, torn down Your altars, and killed Your prophets with the sword. I alone am left; and they seek to take my life.” – 1 Kings 19:9-10 NKJV
- Elizabeth went to hide after the Lord met with her husband and God restored her womb:
And the people waited for Zacharias, and marveled that he lingered so long in the temple. But when he came out, he could not speak to them; and they perceived that he had seen a vision in the temple, for he beckoned to them and remained speechless.
So it was, as soon as the days of his service were completed, that he departed to his own house. Now after those days his wife Elizabeth conceived; and she hid herself five months, saying, “Thus the Lord has dealt with me, in the days when He looked on me, to take away my reproach among people.” – Luke 1:21-25 NKJV
- Jesus went to hide himself to hear from God the Father and pray
While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light.” These things Jesus spoke, and departed, and was hidden from them. – John 12:36 NKJV
Now in the morning, having risen a long while before daylight, He went out and departed to a Solitary place; and there He prayed. – Mark 1:35
So hey, maybe this hiding thing is a good thing. I can meet God right here in the middle of my mess. I’ll make God my hiding place and get through this dumb stuff.