A Wing and a Prayer

trials, tests, suffering…how could this possibly help me? Have you ever wondered what is the purpose of this season? What good could possibly come from this?

The trying of our faith can be exasperating. It can even drive us to tears.  I am in such a season this month. How about you?  It has been a month of delays. yeah, the check  is the mail sort of month.  My husband is working his butt off, and this seems to be the month that our buyers have all decided to pay late.  15 day notices become 30 days, etc. And the ex is behind on his child support too, as usual. Gotta love it. I am out of work, still doing the PT thing.

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So I ask, God, what is the point of this? Should we see how high the checkbook can fly? Yep there it goes, up on a wing and a prayer!  Yeah right. So, I pray. And look for a desk job.  They have told me I can’t stand on my leg for longer than 30 minutes at a time. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to run or jog again. So I sit, and wait, and pray.  Now I know this is only temporary. God has always made a way, He has always been faithful.  Yet, I can’t help but wonder, why am I here in this valley again?

I have to say I have grown.  In the old days I would be freaking out. Locking myself in the bathroom, rocking, crying – I was kind of a mess back then. Yet today, it is different.  I know that God has it. He promised to provide the ram in the bush. So I wait.  I still can’t say I like it, but I am not a basket case.  I guess today I don’t measure my worth by what is in my checkbook.

So, ok back to my question – what is the purpose of a trial.  Let me share a story.  a few weeks ago we had a Bible Study and the topic of Divorce came up. Now hey, I am a little too experienced in that department! So I shared the “how and why” of my story. Anyway, afterwards a friend came up to me and said, “Hey, I was married and divorced before too. What do you think the point of that was?”  Now I didn’t really have an answer, but I opened up and said, “You know what, I don’t know. But I do know that if my first marriage had worked out I wouldn’t be here – in church, playing piano on a Sunday morning.”  The truth is that what I had spoken didn’t hit me until today.  If not for my trials, my sufferings, my tests,  I would have never sought out God.  And I would have never needed Jesus for a Savior.  If I had no needs would I pray?    If I didn’t go through a “drought” season would I have compassion on my brothers/sisters when they go through it?  If I didn’t know what it felt like would I have even seen it in someone else?

So, like that song BLESSINGS by Laura’s Story,

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?


1 Peter 1:3-9
New Living Translation (NLT)
The Hope of Eternal Life

 All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is by his great mercy that we have been born again, because God raised Jesus Christ from the dead. Now we live with great expectation, and we have a priceless inheritance—an inheritance that is kept in heaven for you, pure and undefiled, beyond the reach of change and decay.  And through your faith, God is protecting you by his power until you receive this salvation, which is ready to be revealed on the last day for all to see.

So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.

You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy.  The reward for trusting him will be the salvation of your souls.

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Dear Lord,

Thank you, for anything you needed to use to build our faith, and draw us closer to You.  No, it may not have been the path we would have chosen, but we are your kids, and we love and trust you Daddy. We know you love us and you always provide for us. Thank you for helping us see. We trust you Daddy, in Jesus Name.