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Home…Soil…Rain…New Birth

DAILY PROMPT: 

Write down the first words that comes to mind when we say . . .

. . . home.

. . . soil.

. . . rain.

Use those words in the title of your post.

New Birth, what are you talking about girl?  No, I am not having another baby, (thank you Jesus)! I don’t even have all those ‘parts’ anymore!  But that still leaves the question; home/soil/rain/new birth????

How are we to be born again?  And why would I want to?  I have to admit, when well-meaning people came to me and told me I could have everlasting life, I said, “What?  I don’t even want to live my life now, why would I want it to last forever?”  Ever felt that way?

But, what I did learn is that I could get another chance, a new life. Kinda like a trade-in, only not with a car.  I could exchange my miserable lonely existence for a new life with God.  A life that would have peace, and joy, and happiness.  Sign me up…

How did I do that?  Glad you asked…  For me I had to acknowledge that I had lived my life without God.  I did what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it.  But living like that kinda left me in the psych ward (more than once), the divorce courts, and the therapists office.  Wow, guess I didn’t have it all together like I thought!

Then, I had to open my heart and mind, and ask Jesus to come in; to my life, my heart, my head; and my past, present, and future.  I needed some rearranging in the thought department, that’s for sure.

The the Bible says to Repent – I had no idea what that meant.  It sounded like more “Christian-eze.  Then I found out that it  just means “turn around”, change the direction you are going, try things a new way.  For me, this meant I would read what God had to say, and ask for His help with things.  I could go just one step at a time…It wasn’t an  overnight thing for me.

Then, I made a choice, to Believe. To believe that Jesus came to earth in the flesh, and was crucified by the “Religious” folks.  He died at Calvary; He was the sacrifice that God needed to pay for all men’s (and women’s) sin.  Kinda like someone else takes the blame at school when you were the one who did it.   But good news friends, Jesus didn’t stay dead.  Yep, he rose again.  And sent us part of himself, the Holy Spirit, the Comforter, the Counselor to help us on our journey.  That’s the “good guy” inside me now.  I am finally comfortable in my own skin; I am home.

And the best part, getting baptized, you know – dunked.  A physical expression of what happens in the spiritual.  That’s where Jesus took all those nasty things I said/did/thoughts along with the hurtful things that others did to me and He buried them – forever.  They are gone, and I finally feel clean.  The Bible says God doesn’t even remember them anymore.  Now that is freedom!

Thank  goodness I don’t have to have this all figured out today.  I am grateful for the “new birth” in my life.  And no, I didn’t have to crawl back into my mommy’s tummy to experience it…What about you?  Are you ready for a change?

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU:

 Nicodemus said to Him, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?”

 Jesus answered, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.

 Do not marvel that I said to you, ‘You must be born again.’ 

 The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit.” (John 3:4-8 NKJV)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord,

I am praying today for the ones who haven’t met You yet.  The children who are lost, bruised, beaten, confused, and hurt.  I pray that You would step into their darkness and shine Your light.  You are not willing that any of them should perish/die/hurt.  I am not either. Lead us to your hurting children Lord.  Use us in this life to show them that things can change, even if they don’t think so.  Add our faith to their despair, and deliver them.  They matter, they count, they are chosen.

The world has left them for dead.  I ask you Lord, to bring them   new life.  You said you came to bring them life, and life more abundantly; release it now Lord.  Give them hope, a future, and a new reason to live, in Jesus’ Name.

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In A Crisis

DAILY PROMPT:  In a Crisis

Honestly evaluate the way you respond to crisis situations. Are you happy with the way you react?

Ok, I have been avoiding this post all day. Crisis, sometimes I think that is my middle name.  When I read the e-mail this morning I said to my husband, “ok, which one?”  It’s kinda scary when you look back over your life and see how much of it has been in “survival” mode.  I guess my life is a testimony, that God is mighty to save.

I don’t want to “glamorize” the past, so I will focus on the question.  I can tell you what doesn’t work.  Replaying the details in my mind again and again of how I got there doesn’t help.  Blaming others doesn’t help. Trying to check out doesn’t help.  Leaving doesn’t help.  Drinking and using script drugs to avoid it doesn’t help.  Ignoring it doesn’t help. Denial doesn’t help. Yep, I tried all of those things when faced with various storms.  Needless to say, they didn’t work.  The end result was not good.

What has worked for me in a crisis is to pray, and to ask for help.  Both require that I admit I am not in control of the situation.  Not the easiest thing in the world for me.  Like you, I love helping others, but find it hard to receive help.  It wasn’t till I was homeless with two kids that I admitted I didn’t have all the answers.  I was humbled, and God met me in my brokenness. He sent “Angels” to my aid, too many to name. Yes, God uses ordinary, everyday people like you, to be His Angels. And I learned to receive, from God and from others.  Then the waves stopped, the storm was over, and  the crisis passed.  Thank you Jesus!

It’s only in the storms that our roots grow deep.  Thank you Lord, for every crisis you have led me out of.  Thank you that I can learn with each trial to trust and rely on You more.  And thank you Lord for the Angels you sent my way.

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU:

Oh! May the God of green hope fill you up with joy, fill you up with peace, so that your believing lives, filled with the life-giving energy of the Holy Spirit, will brim over with hope!  (Romans 15:13 MSG)

Focused on the Goal

I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back. (Philippians 3:12-14 MSG)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord,

Thank you that You never leave us or forsake us.  Thank you for the trials You have put in our lives that have drawn us closer to you.  Forgive us for taking so long.  Transform our minds, from glory to glory, help us let go of the past, and embrace the now.  Let us enjoy each and every moment, the now, with You.  We treasure Your presence, in the calm and in the storm, in Jesus’ Name.

Toot Your Horn

DAILY PROMPT:

Most of us are excellent at being self-deprecating, and are not so good at the opposite. Tell us your favorite thing about yourself.

Things I like about me:

(It only took 48 years, a big God, 10+ years of meetings/therapy, for me to even be able to do this,  hallelujah!)

1.  I’m a good wife and mother, my precious husband and adorable children told me so! Even God loves me, He calls me Beloved.  He sees you that way too.  I am growing in my relationship with Jesus.  We are coming to know each other more every time we spend time together.  I am so glad we are past the “religious” stage, now we can talk anywhere and anytime, and so can you…

2.  I have let go of being a perfectionist.  I used to drive myself nuts, along with everyone else.  I am ok not being right all the time.  I am learning to receive grace and mercy from God.  My heart was so hard for so long.  When you get hurt it’s easy to put up the walls.  But then I was trapped in a cage with myself, that was scary! Thank goodness things change.

3.  I am grateful for the gift of music that God gave me.  I love playing music with my wonderful husband, Bob.  We are blessed to play at Janesville Apostolic Ministries with an awesome group of anointed singers every week. I also write my own songs and have dabbled in recording.  Even though I have a lot to learn yet, I am learning to appreciate the small things, and the process of growing.

4.  I am a giver.  I love to give things away, just ask my husband.  I guess I remember the days when the kids and I lived at the shelter and had nothing.  We left with 2 black garbage bags, the universal suitcase!  These days God has restored my life, and He can restore yours too…

Here ‘s a Free Song  for you that I wrote, called “Peace”  It has sax, I love sax!

GODS PROMISE TO YOU:

From the Song of Solomon 2:10

*My beloved spoke, and said to me:  “Rise up, my love, my fair one,  And come away.” (NKJV)

*My beloved speaks and says to me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away. (AMP)

*My beloved spoke and said to me, Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, come with me. (NIV)

*My lover said to me, “Rise up, my darling! Come away with me, my fair one! (NLT)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord, 

We thank you, for giving us new sight today.  Help us see ourselves through Your eyes of love and grace, instead of our own.

We receive Your forgiveness today, we receive Your love, we receive Your super-abounding grace and mercy.  We receive Your unmerited and unearned favor.   

We want to come away with You, to the secret place, where we can talk, and just hang out and be.  Your presence changes everything.  Take us away Lord, just like Calgon!

Polite Company

DAILY PROMPT:

“It’s never a good idea to discuss religion or politics with people you don’t really know.” Agree or disagree?

Wow, what a question.  That’s really kinda funny.   Here we are blogging about it.  I would have to disagree. I am pouring my heart out to a lot of people I don’t really know lately.  I think that is the fun of it!  And thank you all for listening, I really appreciate your kindness and mercy.  We do talk about a lot of “hard” things sometimes.

Politics and religion; these are two areas where people in general have very strong beliefs.  And there are those instigators that like to argue and stir up the pot. So, I guess I would “test the spirits” when someone asks either question.  What is the attitude behind the question?  Curiosity, interest, or is someone just baiting you and waiting to pounce on your answer.  This happens in both politics and religion.  I think that’s why so many people do not talk about it.  They don’t want to get hit over the head.

Jesus came and specifically admonished the Religious Sect, for their attitudes.  You know the type, the “I’m better than you” or “I’m right and you are wrong” or  “I know everything and you know nothing.” person.  Pride, arrogance, and self-absorption is a turn-off for anyone.  And so is lying.  Once again, “test the spirits”.  Power has a strange effect on people.

My view on politics: tell the truth.

My view on Religion: be real.

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU: 

When there is moral rot within a nation, its government topples easily.  But wise and knowledgeable leaders bring stability. (Proverbs 28:2)

For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given;

And the government will be upon His shoulder.

And His name will be called

Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God,

Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace

Of the increase of His government and peace

There will be no end,

Upon the throne of David and over His kingdom,

To order it and establish it with judgment and justice

From that time forward, even forever.

The zeal of the Lord of hosts will perform this. ( Isaiah 9:6-7)

God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble 

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord,

We really need Your wisdom here.  Lead us in all things, give us discernment to know the truth from the lies.  We know You hate hypocrites and liars too.  We pray that you would raise up truthful, godly, and humble men and women who are filled with Your Spirit, to lead and represent our countries.  You are the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, and the government is on your shoulders. 

Lord Jesus, heal our nations, we need Your holy habitation!

A Word A Week Photo Challenge: Round

A Word a Week Photo Challenge: ROUND

 

Round

I’m thanking you, God, from a full heart,
I’m writing the book on your wonders.
I’m whistling, laughing, and jumping for joy;
I’m singing your song, High God. (Psalm 9:1-2 MSG)

http://suellewellyn2011.wordpress.com/2013/01/12/a-word-a-week-photo-challenge-round/

Starting Over

STARTING OVER:  DP Writing Challenge

(This was written when the kids and I were staying at a YWCA Shelter for Domestic Violence)

SHELTER WOMEN 

by Diana Rasmussen

We are the shelter women, running fast and far away,

For he’s stalking us again, and we are on the run.

We are starting over, trying not to live the past.

We come from every walk of life, every nation every tribe.

We carry around our stories, of how we almost died.

We know there is a God, Christ Jesus is His Name,

He protects and keeps our families, only now without a dad.

We move from town to town, as he stalks our every move,

Police, Court, and Restraining Orders, the truth we have to prove.

Yet one day Lord, and soon I hope, You promised we’d be free.

Can we come now? Just let us in, Eternity to see.

Where no more tears, and no more pain, will ever touch us there.

Hurry Lord, please save us now, before he finds us here.

(If you, or someone you know needs help, please visit the YWCA)

Weekly Photo Challenge: Illumination

Weekly Photo Challenge: Illumination

We will magnify what we look at, are you seeing the “good”, or the “bad”? As a man thinks in his heart, so he becomes. What are you looking at and thinking about today?

http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/01/11/lights/

Clean Slate

Daily Prompt:  

Explore the room you’re in as if you’re seeing it for the first time. Pretend you know nothing. What do you see? Who is the person who lives there?

living room

Hmmm, this is interesting.  Kinda an old farmhouse, cute, quaint.  Let’s see what goes on here.  So this is the living room, the room where they spend most of their time.  They must be musicians, look at that corner – piano, bass, 2 guitars, and a djembe drum. OK, there are speakers in the corner, not like stereo speakers, but more like you would see at a concert. You don’t see that everyday!  And a mixing board under the couch table.  Kinda like a whole band righ there in the living room.

And look on the wall, there’s one of those shelves that holds old teacups…they all match, look pretty old. And what’s that, oh, looks like all kinds of homemade little trinkets that your kids would bring home from art class.    Alot of pictures hanging, looks like original artwork, they must have kids.  Yep, there’s the pictures…looks like a hockey player, a cellist, 2 really attractive young women, and 2 younger kids, a girl and a boy.  Wow, thats 6 kiddos – 3 boys and 3 girls, that’s a handful!

And look at that TV, how could you miss it, it’s freaking huge, one of those projection things.  Someone here must looooove movies.   And there are two laptops and an ipad…hmmm. Must be geeks.  Yep, there’s a laser printer on the end table.  Only geeks would put a laser printer on an end table.  Oh yeah, here’s more stuff, a computer bag on the couch, and a blue basket full of all kinds of random cat5 cables, power supplies, definitely geek stuff.

Furniture is lived in, but inviting.  Looks like 2 couches and a recliner.  Probably need two couches with 6 kids! That, or they have alot of people over.   I mean who needs two couches?  Speaking of cozy, isn’t that cute? There’s an electric fireplace on the back wall, dang that thing throws off alot of heat!

Hey, I found some books, lets see what they read.  Looks like  “Worship As it is in Heaven” ,” Worship Warriors”,  a Bible, and a journal.  Let’s peek, come on… ok, looks like dates and scripture verses, poems, or maybe songs.  Oh yeah, the music. I’ve got it Sherlock, they must play at a church or something.

And look at that cute little black dog sitting in the recliner.  She’s a bit chunky, but perky!  She must think she runs the joint.  She probably sits in that chair all day waiting for her people to come home.  Look at that tapestry on the wall, pretty gazebos in a garden, with a verse on it.  “Come with me to a quiet place and rest”.  This must be the peaceful place, the room where their family gathers by the fireplace, where the musicians sing and praise God, and the bloggers/geeks “do their thing”…

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU:

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  (Matthew 11:28 NKJV)

But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.  (Isaiah 40:31 NKJV)

 I’ll refresh tired bodies; I’ll restore tired souls. (Jeremiah 31:25  MSG)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord,  Thank you for coming into our homes today.  We are grateful that you love as just as we are at this very moment.  Thank you that we don’t have to have everything all neat and tidy for you to come in.  You are our friend.  Even when the dishes aren’t done, and the piles are on the table, we let You in.  We trust You Lord, You have been there through all of it, even if we didn’t see it at the time.

Bring us rest, and peace today Lord.  Let Your Holy Spirit fill us with peace that surpasses understanding.  Leave us speechless with Your presence.  Let’s just sit and be today.  Good friends don’t always have to talk, there is such comfort in the silence sometimes when you are with someone who loves you.

Let’s do this again, and again, and again…

Take Two

DAILY PROMPT: Take Two

Run outside. Take a picture of the first thing you see. Run inside. Take a picture of the second thing you see. Write about the connection between these two random objects, people, or scenes.

Ok, I kinda put the pictures together…This swing is outside our front door, we are blessed to live in the country on about 2.5 acres. Together we have 6 kids, kinda the Brady Bunch thing, but no Alice! My husband, Bob, put the tire swing up last year for the kids. My dad gave us the wooden swing, it used to be at their campground. The pictures are original artwork made by my two oldest daughters, Jenny & Amanda. Jen is 24, Manda is 21. The pictures both hang on the wall in our living room. The connection? Jen and Manda are all grown up and on their own now, hence the wooden swing and tire swing are empty.

This post got me thinking about how quickly time passes, and how quickly our kids grow up. I still remember the girls and their turtle sandbox, the spaghetti in their hair, and the mud pies outside. And we would put on Stevie Ray Vaughn CD and dance in the kitchen. Then, in a blink of an eye, they are out of the house and on their own. I am constantly amazed at how beautiful and talented they both are. And smart, did I tell you that yet? I am so proud of both of them. They have overcome some amazing obstacles, and they are both such strong, independent women.

You see, they didn’t come from the “picture perfect” family. Life at our house was less than peaceful. Their dad and I divorced when they were 6 and 3. There was a 2 year battle for placement, I lost, and and they grew up living with their Dad. I lived in the next town over, but it wasn’t the same. Then, in my anger I went on my own little “spree”. I moved to NV, Maine, and Minnesota all in about a 3 year period. I was running from myself in those days. Let’s just say I was not the best mom in those days. I was not consistent. I tried, but I had alot of emotional and mental baggage I carried around from place to place. And no God, I was not a real believer yet.

Yet, despite my weaknesses and failures, they overcame. They did not let their past dictate their future. They are beautiful, talented, smart, and have amazing things in their future. Jen is getting married this year, Amanda is going to college…

Even though I am the mom, I think I have learned more from them. They taught me that your past does not determine your future. They taught me about forgiveness, when they “let me back in” their lives after my galavanting around the country. They taught me how hard work and tenacity pays off. And they taught me about love and forgiveness, and that’s it’s okay to make mistakes. They taught me that home is where the love is. They taught me about standing up for myself, about not being a “doormat” or a victim. They are both so strong, and I admire them so much. Thank you Jesus, for children, that teach us and love us despite everything. I love you Jenny & Amanda!

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU:

1 Corinthians 13  The Message

The Way of Love

13 If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate.

2 If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing.

3-7 If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, Doesn’t have a swelled head, Doesn’t force itself on others, Isn’t always “me first,” Doesn’t fly off the handle, Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, Doesn’t revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end.

8-10 Love never dies.

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord, I ask you to watch over and bless our children.  Heal any hurts that we or others may have caused them.   Restore them in all ways.  Turn their sorrow into joy, and their mourining into dancing.  Fill them with love, peace, and joy.  Bless their coming in and going out,  bless the work of their hands. Bless their relationships.   Guide them, lead them, and protect them from the evil one.  Give them a double portion,  for surely they will see the goodness of the Lord  in the land of the living, in Jesus’ Name.

This is Your Life

Daily Prompt

If you could read a book containing all that has happened and will ever happen in your life, would you? If you choose to read it, you must read it cover to cover.

When is the last time you went to the movie theater? (or theatre, depending on where you live!)  Remember the person that is inevitably behind you.  I can hear them now, ” This is the third time I’ve seen this movie this week. I loooooooooooove it!”  Then the movie gets to a suspenseful scene and they say, “I remember this part, they are going to…”  at which point they blurt out what happens. Don’t you just wanna turn around and deck them at this point?  It kinda ruins the fun when you know what’s gonna happen.

So my answer would be no, I would not want to read it.  I can’t imagine knowing exactly what would come next in my life.  It would take all the fun out of it!   There would be no more surpirses, no more “ah-hah” moments.  If we knew the ending would we enjoy the moment? Would we have miracle moments?  I don’t think so. If I read something sad in the book, I would cry when I read it.  But then when it happened, I think it would be empty, almost void of emotion.  Same thing with joy. I wouldn’t wanna miss a chance to laugh!

One of the gifts of life is living it; with the good, the bad, and the ugly.  Would you even feel things like happiness, sadness, joy, or sorrow if you already knew what was coming.  I think I would feel robbed.  It would make me feel like a puppet in a play. Or an actor reading her lines.  Yeah, you could “pretend”, but it wouldn’t be the same.  Could you even call it life?

I kinda like not knowing.  It makes every day an adventure!  And what about building your faith?   Can you imagine a life without faith?  or hope?  You wouldn’t have to hope for anything, you would know what would happen already.  And you wouldn’t have to trust God or anyone, you wouldn’t need to.  And what about prayer, what would you have to pray about?  You would know what happens to yourself and all your family/friends/acquaitences/church, etc.  alreadly. Life without prayer would be unbearable.  The more I write about this, the worse it gets!

Oh yeah, then we could get political.  What about free choice?  You really wouldn’t have a choice in anything for the future, the ending is already written.  That must be illegal or something.  What about the Declaration of Independence, why  it would violate our civil rights! We like to choose, something about declaring these truths to be self-evident. (History was like my worst subject, well, other than gym)  Ok, simmer down girl…

GOD’S PROMISE FOR YOU:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 
In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.  (Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord,  thank you for the  life that you have given each of us.  Thank  you for the happiness, the sorrow, the good and the bad, and  for all of the things that we have gone through that have drawn us closer to You.  Thank you Lord, that You have come, to give us life, and life more abundantly.  We eagerly await whateverYou have for us next, for we know that You are the Author of Life, and the finisher of our faith.    You are a good God, and delight in giving your kids the best.  Thank you Lord, that You never leave us or forsake us in this journey.  And we are grateful that we can trust You with whatever comes next, in Jesus name.

32 FLAVORS

DAILY PROMPT: Vanilla, chocolate, or something else entirely?

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Hands down, it’s gotta be chocolate for me. Chocolate, a girls best friend, the one PMS medicine that works, and a wonderful “take me away” food.  Plus, trying to justify myself here, dark chocolate is  high in antioxidants, it may help lower your blood pressure, and it increases the endorphin’s in your brain.OK, I know how to use Google.  Truthfully, I would eat chocolate whether it was healthy or not!

I went to Baskin-Robbins (online), and there are pictures of all the flavors.

Kinda reminds me of all God’s kids,

many different flavors, but all good!

GODS PROMISE TO YOU:

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the God of gods. His love endures forever.
Give thanks to the Lord of lords: His love endures forever.
 (Psalm 136:1-3 NIV)
Give thanks to the God of heaven. His love endures forever.
(Psalm 136:26 NIV)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Lord, we just want to say thank you. Thank you for loving us forever. Thank you for covering us with  Your grace and mercy.  Thank you for Jesus.  Thank you for the new life You have given us.  Thank you that we do not have to stay the same.  Thank you for delivering us.  

Thank you that we are Your kids. (Are we there yet Daddy?) 

And God, thank you  for ice cream!  

We know you love us in all 32 flavors!

1984

DAILY PROMPT: 1984 

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You’re locked in a room with your greatest fear. Describe what’s in the room.

I close my eyes, and remember a time, when I was frightened…

I don’t know if I am going to live or die today.  It is so dark but the air is so heavy.  Wait…I can feel that black spirit flying around my head again.  I hate this room.   Stop it!  I can’t believe I am back here again.  I told myself I was never going to come here again.   I am locked in a room with my PAIN.

There are so many places in my life where it snuck in, kinda oozed it under the door, and through the vents, and it’s inside the walls….I have stuffed it into this room for so long now.  It’s the “secret room”.  The place where I bury my PAIN…

There are too many hurts, too many betrayals, too many “incidents”.  Is what is left over, when you have survived abuse.

Here’s one of the poems I wrote when I was in that dark  place:

WE SUFFER IN SILENCE

© 2013 Diana Rasmussen

(from a long time ago in a faraway place)
We suffer in silence, Those in God’s fold,
When we live with Judas, in our not-quiet house.
To you he shows smiles, not a worry or care.
But we live with a traitor, all behind closed doors.
To you – words of peace flow and ebb from his mouth,
But the darkness come out when you’re not around.
F**k you b**ch! He shouts as he shoves you around,
Yelling and screaming, the insults abound.
“If only you’d this, If only you’d that”
His excuses are endless, he pulls them out of a hat.
Each day that goes on you stare in amazement,
As he smiles to the world, but throws things in your face.
Glass, wood, watch it shatter, you stare on in disbelief,
As he destroys all your things in front of you and the kids.
Your spirit he squashes, your dreams they are shattered,
Your hope has run out, when he asks “what is the matter?”
Destroy and devour, divide and deceive,
We cry out to God, Lord get me out of this place.
Every day that goes on, we keep the secret
The Devil’s alive and he lives in your house.
(Diana’s Disclaimer: Yes, I finally got help, and the kids and I are no longer with this man.  God sent Angels our way, and we are safe. Thank you Jesus!)

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU:

14 “Because he[a] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”  Psalm 91:14-16 (NIV)

MY PRAYER FOR YOU:

Dear Lord, You know all things and see all things.  We know that You have NOT given us a spirit of fear, but of love, and power, and a sound mind.  We aks You to shine Your light in the darkness, send your Angels to minister to anyone bound by fear.  Renew our minds as we ready Your Word. We know that your Word will accomplish that which You have set it out to do. Deliver us Lord,  for we acknowledge Your Name.   Lead us out of the darkness and into the  marvelous light.  Let Your light overpower any darkness and fear, in Jesus name.