My everyday life – plus court!

Miss Diana needs to vent today, please forgive me in advance, I just have to be honest with myself today about how I feel…

Is there anyone who has been to court for your ex not paying child support?  Yesterday, I had the pleasure (yeah right) of going to court AGAIN.  I have been divorced for over 8 years now.  I have two kids still at home with me, and I was awarded full placement and custody after my ex’s pattern/arrests for Domestic Violence.  My ex was court ordered to pay child support.  Well, it  has been like pulling teeth.  I can’t tell you how many times I have been to court. I have to say I am very disillusioned with the whole process.

I thought it would only take one court appearance, my ex would get in trouble, and then he would do the right thing and pay child support. Yeah right, I must have had those rose-colored glasses on!  I  can’t believe a father could not want to provide for his kids.  Seriously, they are both teenagers now.  His pattern is to work 3 months and then quit. When we were married I moved 15 times in the 8 years.  Yeah, real stable relationship there Diana.

SO, back to yesterday, yes, he was charged with contempt again (this is the 4th time I think) and ordered to pay his support every week for the next year.  He has been in jail three times for contempt.  Funny, after he  gets arrested he magically comes up with bail money to get out.  So I’m thinking, wow, that was the same order I got 8 years ago, and he still hasn’t done it.  Where is the justice in that? I know I’m venting  here.  These are some of the things that I battle with in my everyday life.  Yet I go to court every time; I’m court ordered to be there, yippee!  Same nightmare, different day.Help me Lord.  And Lord, help my ex do the next right thing, I don’t want to go to court again.  This is stupid. And a waste of time.

The other side of the story:

On a more positive note I do want to testify about the goodness of God.   The Lord has provided for me and the kids these past 8 years, and our lives are much better without all the chaos and fighting.  God is faithful.He has protected us and fed us manna from heaven and given us water from the rock. Despite all the drama, I am much closer to the Lord than before.  Thank you for Your promises: I have to hold onto something positive when the s&^t hits the fan…and it is flying these days…

GOD’S PROMISE TO YOU AND TO ME:

Place Your Life Before God

So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.  (Romans 12:2 MSG)