Another New Car?

Another new car? Seriously? The ex pulls in the driveway with yet another car. That’s the third one I’ve seen in the last few weeks. Yes, he is in trouble with the law – again. And yet I am court ordered to let him see our two kids. Sometimes he shows up. Sometimes he cancels. And here is mom, the master Piece Picker-upper. Yeah. You know how that goes. He promises one thing. Then cancels. And we moms get to pick up the pieces. All while keeping our mouths shut, because in the kids eyes – he is the Hero. Doesn’t make sense at all does it? Yeah, making $24/hour for almost  year and still not paying any child support. Moving on

I have to believe in God and that He will make things right. Otherwise I would be back in the ‘I love me jacket’ and living in the ‘rubber room’ again. That wasn’t fun.  Well, good meds – I’ll give them that.  But skip the Seroquel – it makes me drool!  Oh the things you learn along the way on this journey. Laugh or cry – seriously.

So I sit. And I wait. And I make the choice to choose to believe that God really does know the ‘bigger picture’ and I may not. My parents divorced. I know what it is like – to love them both in different places. To be caught in the middle. (see Second Fiddle)

I am in a much better place. God rewrote my story…and I am grateful. I know love today. God restored my soul!

7 comments

  1. So many things are just not fair. We just have to believe that God will vindicate us and restore what the enemy has stolen from us. I will be praying for you and your children… Love you, my sister!!

  2. Oh gosh .. . This is hard and requires Holy Spirit duct tape at times! Love and prayers and amen to God restoring us!

  3. I get it. Truth will always win out, and as heartbreaking as it is to watch, your kids will see the truth one day without a word from you. In the meantime, God can do miracles in people’s lives so there is always hope your ex will turn around and be the dad he was supposed to be. Not likely perhaps, mine hasn’t, but it’s not for you to concern yourself with now. He is in God’s hands. That’s great because it means he will be accountable to the one who matters most. Praying for your mom heart as you go through this.

    • Awww, thanks Laura – yes, I want to keep my mommy heart and not get bitter. God will make it right for me and the kids. He is faithful. God bless you too beautiful, Diana

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