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Here is the Word that was shared with our congregation from the Lord. This one really hit me. You see, ever since I came to church I have been learning all sorts of things that focused on how to make me ‘good enough’ for God. You know – you gotta ‘get right with God – right?’ I have heard that I needed to wear certain things, do things, don’t do things, you know. Yeah. Been there, done that?  And I spend ALL my time focusing on ME and what I should and shouldn’t do to be the ‘Good Little Christian’ girl. I tried following the ‘law of men’ and it was not freedom at all. It was church bondage.

Can I tell you that didn’t work? All that happened was that I got more frustrated and angry. I could never do or be good enough. I came to church looking for healing and found out that I waseven more screwed up than you thought.  Yeah – that’s what the Pastor said as he laughed in my face.  I didn’t read my bible enough, I didn’t go to every church function, I didn’t pray enough, I didn’t say the right thing. I didn’t do the right thing. And (oh no – the biggie) I colored my hair and wore makeup and jewelry, and I even smoked and drank. I was already going through a divorce. My kids wouldn’t go to church with me because all of a sudden mom told them they had to change their clothes too and not do this, and not do that – or God wouldn’t like them. Yeah, really. But I came to church, I sought counseling and I was honest about it. I wanted to change, I just didn’t know how.

Eventually, after getting ‘sat down’ from playing music  for the third time because I didn’t follow the little rules – I quit. And there was an accusation that I had a relationship with someone. Oh no – really – after a year of not dating? I was confronted and shamed. Yes, I did finally see someone after a year. (You little sinner you – yeah, guess so.) That’s kinda why I was there right? I already knew that.But there are always those who point fingers and accuse isn’t there?  That was not love. That was rocks.  I walked away. I couldn’t do it anymore.  My kids wouldn’t go to church with me because all of a sudden mom told them they had to change their clothes too and do this/don’t do that- or God wouldn’t like them. Yeah, really. So I walked out – of bondage – and into freedom.

That’s when things changed. God says “All have sinned and fallen short of the Glory of God.” Yep – me too.  

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And I could focus my life on what I am doing wrong

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I could focus my life on what God is doing right.

It really is true – you become what you look at.  If I look at Jesus – I reflect Him. If I look at me and my shortcomings or others and their shortcomings – I reflect that.

Here is the WORD that was released at our church 2 weeks ago – it’s what touched my heart and helped me to refocus. No selfies here – I just want to look at Him.  This Word from the Lord reminded me that it not about how worthy I am – it’s all about how worthy He is! Man, I have so much more to learn – thank you Lord – for your love and leading. I am glad that the Lord continues to share His Word and His Truth with us.

I am for you RAISED
I am the Lord Your God
To those with cancer – I will serve thee
but before I send the best Fighter I told them to send the best Worshippers
because I AM worthy to be praised
Praising me will break down the walls in your life
I only ask one thing from you – I ask you to lay your life down for me
I ask you to get uncomfortable for me
I AM worthy to be praised
step out of your comfort zone
raise your hand  – for me
I raised two for you
I AM worthy to be praised
My children I love you
I have plans for you
I made you to praise me –  because I AM worthy to be praised
I am the Healer, I am your Comforter and you are my children
I AM WORTHY TO BE PRAISED
Here me today children
I AM WORTHY TO BE PRAISED
Remember what I know
I AM WORTHY TO BE PRAISED
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