Depression. Fear. 3 steps forward…2 steps back. Sometimes the journey is long. Sometimes the way is dark. I walk sometimes amidst the shadows and feel like there is a cloud surrounding me sometimes. I know, depression. Ugggh. I don’t like this valley. I don’t want to be here. The negative thoughts bombard my mind. Where is the switch?
“You are not going to make it”
“You will always be poor”
“This marriage will never last. He doesn’t love you.”
“Your kids don’t even want to be with you.”
“You are too fat and too ugly.”
“You can’t sing. You can’t play”
I know these thoughts are not from God. They are old battles that I have already won with God’s help. Yet they still come knocking trying to come in to my head. These are the times that I must take a stand, leave the door shut, and speak the Word of God over my thoughts, over my life. Just like Jesus did when He was in the wilderness with the Devil. The Word shuts up the Devil every time!
Yet I know who stands beside me and leads the way.
The Lord the Shepherd of His People
A Psalm of David.
The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever. (Psalm 23:1-6 NKJV)
Though I walk in the midst of trouble,
You will revive me;
You will stretch out Your hand
Against the wrath of my enemies,
And Your right hand will save me.
The Lord will perfect that which concerns me;
Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever;
Do not forsake the works of Your hands. (Psalm 138:7-8 NKJV)
“Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me. In My Father’s house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. And where I go you know, and the way you know.” ( John 14:1-4 NKJV)