Tell us about a time you did a 180 — changed your views on something, reversed a decision, or acted in a way you ordinarily don’t.
It’s funny how God can turn things around. The other morning my husband said this to me, “For someone who used to be stalked, you sure do have a lot of followers!” I thought it was hilarious, and so true!
I used to be a victim of domestic violence.
I used to be afraid to leave the house.
I used to be followed around.
I used to be afraid to answer my phone.
I used to be afraid to talk to anyone.
I used to look behind my shoulder everywhere I went.
I used to live in fear, every day.
That is when I swore to myself I would NEVER get married again. I had a habit of getting involved with psychos. Yep, very possessive, controlling, manipulating men. Of course they didn’t start out that way. They sure were good talkers. Knew just what to say and when to say it. I was deceived.
After the last divorce I took a year off from dating anyone. That was a miracle because ever since I was a teenager I always had a boyfriend. I have to say that was the healthiest thing I ever did for myself. I went to counseling – by myself. I went to church – by myself. I went to the grocery store, and the mall, and a movie – by myself.
And for the first time I found out what I liked. And how I felt. And what I believed in. I think I was an easy prey for the abusers in my life. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted. I had no opinion on anything. I would agree with them just to avoid a fight. I would be whoever they wanted me to be. It is funny, if I look back at old photos, I became who I was dating. There is my “yuppie” pics, my “biker” pics, my “preppie” pics, etc.
Things are different today. I am free. I am safe. I started this blog on Jan 1st of this year, and there have been over 4200 visits from all over the world. I am humbled. I am grateful. I am blessed. Thank you Jesus for turning things around and giving me hope and a new life!
And followers are a good thing! That’s 180 degree change for me!